Angels and Demons

Just finished reading the book. It was nicely written. The plot was built on one brilliantly simple yet silly idea, the impulsiveness of an ignorant young priest. The twist at the end was unsuspected. The book surfaced many questions in my mind. Questions that have no definite answers to. Who is God? How do we define God? What is faith? What is religion? I shall not spend my energy trying to dig for answers that are not there. God, faith and religion can only be defined by ourselves. They are how we see them to be. As for me, I know who my God is. He is the Heavenly Father which many Christians and Catholics believe in. He is the One who loved me so much that He sent His only Son to die for our sins, and be resurrected so that we may spend eternity in Heaven with Him. I do not seek to make everyone see God as how I see Him, for I know that He is something to be experienced. In my many encounters with God, I've seen how powerful, gracious, loving and merciful He is. Ever since I re-dedicated my life to God in 2002, I've come to see His hands at work in my life. Saving my family from the chaos it was in, saving my sister from the abyss she had plunged into, and saving me from the wreck I had become from the daily struggles to keep the family together. From a family that seemed hopeless and problematic, God transformed it into something beautiful and loving. There are still times of quarrels and conflicts, but those times are rare, and over minor things that are of no importance. My sister too was transformed. Rage, anger, violence, stubborness and rebellion used to rule her, but they rule her no more. She had changed to someone who shows her love to her family, and her care and concern. Although the past traits still lingered in her, they are under control now. I've seen how He healed me from illnesses that made me to be bed-ridden for 2 weeks and which no medicine cure me, instantly. In many other ways I've seen God's hand at work. Many people would disclaim that by saying it's pure coincidence or by whatever theory they have besides the divine intervention. But I know for myself that it was no by pure chance that all these happened. My soul feels it, and the stirring of the spirit within me confirms the existence of God. It may not be enough to convince others, but it sure convinced me that what I've committed myself to was not wrong or foolish. I've embarked on a journey that has proven itself to be painful and joyous at the same time. But in this exhilarating rollercoaster ride of faith and belief, I've learnt much about life and God. The journey is not easy, nor is the next change in direction preditable. But the end I'm sure of, and that is to stand in front of my Saviour one day and say, "Thank you for everything." I took that leap of faith instead of the leap out of my window that day. And I'm glad I heeded His voice instead of my own cry of hopelessness and despair. Thank you God for all that You've given me. All the beautiful moments too with the person I loved. Though it did not last as I thought it would, I am still grateful. Guard my heart for now Lord Jesus, that I may know that the next girl I hold in my arms would be the one You intended for me. And transform me too, into the man You've intended me to be. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.