Spilt Lasagna

sigh... i've let go of the last two fingers... more like let them slip off... so i fell... from 2000 floors up... and i landed... splat on the concrete ground below.. melodramatic as SHE wld say... whatever... i feel like something, someone inside me died... maybe the aly i know... i'm hurt... so hurt that i'm turning bitter and jealous... sigh... will i ever be revived? only time will tell i guess... as for now... gotta learn to not be so bothered by nic... gotta be independent of her... why did i become so dependent on her? i've been so dependent on someone before... why did i love her so strongly n deeply? i've nva loved anyone to such a great extent before... what a joke God's playing on me... now i don't even have the strength to play His game... so drained and tired... gimme some buffs to continue man... or i might just fade away soon... sigh... ='(