Back with another random thought. Actually, this time it ain't that random.
Alright. This was just something that came to me the other day. I think it was last week. Wanted very much to write this then, but time and energy did not permit. =p
Went with Ian and Danny to visit this friend's dad in the hospital that day. His dad is in a state of comastose and in the ICU. I remember myself being real tired, but because I promised that I would go, I decided that I should keep to it.
When I got there, I saw a solemn mum and her son. Their faces were downcast with unspoken sadness and pain. It was hard to bear and I just could not look at their faces for too long without feeling a sense of helplessness. The usual cheery Alywin who never fails to bring a smile or laughter onto the face of whoever he's talking to could not do anything. Sigh.
What really hit me was not that. It was what lies behind the wooden swing doors that keep visitors out of the ICU ward. As I entered and approached the bed on which his dad lied, I just feel this sense of sadness start welling up. I had to fight back the tears that are threatening to burst out from my eyes at any moment. Seeing his dad lie on the bed, it was the hardest thing ever.
At that moment, my mind was filled with only one thought. That could jolly well be my dad. And just by that thought, I nearly cried out. All the petty anger and squabbles suddenly disappeared from my mind. All I know was, I love my dad. I had loved him since I was young and growing up, and I love him still even for all the things he's done and who he is that I've come to know from a grown up's point of view. Although no longer the hero figure to the little Alywin of the past, he's still someone whom I respected and loved. And, he could be the one lying on that bed over there.
It just hit me. The fragility and simplicity of life. Someone with you today might be gone tomorrow. Just like that. Almost as simple as the snap of the fingers. *snap* *Gone...* Yeah.
How would you live this life? That is the question I'm leaving you with. As for me... I'll live it the way I want to.. According to how Jesus leads me to. =D
