tears in heaven...

I remember seeing the two pairs of eyes a few weeks ago. One one them was crystal clear and colourless, radiating with light, full of hope, expectance, love and trust. The other pair was dark as the night, with blood red pupils, filled with anger, hurt, jealousy, scorn, contempt, hatred and pain. I was just wondering to myself what does these two pairs of eyes signify when I heard this voice in my head going, "Heaven and Hell are watching you." THAT spooked me out man... Goosebumps shot through my whole body and I seriously did not know how to react. But then I just prayed and let the matter rest.

It's been awhile now since that happened. But one curious thing was that after that incident, alot of stuff started coming up. Especially with my walk with God. Lots of struggles, issues, wild thoughts, mixed feelings and emotions. It was like I was put throught a simulator where test after test was run on me for assessment.

Alright. I thought of all this today because something came up. The D Man threw a fakie on me and it was so smooth that I got caught. Man! Anyways, this was what went on..

"Get thee behind me Satan!"
"You lose boy, you lose this round."
"Shut the hell up and get behind me!"
"Shut MY hell up? Don't make me laugh. You know you lost this round."
"Even hell belongs to the Lord. So why don't you just make a move."
"You still lost dude."
"Get outta my head in the Name of Jesus."

-silence-

*I closed my eyes and saw the two pairs of eyes again. The eyes of Heaven were flooded. Overflowing with tears and they looked sad and disappointed. Gleeful were the eyes of Hell. I couldn't bear the sight and I just opened my eyes.*

I felt all weird suddenly after that. I stopped and prayed. And instead for asking for just forgiveness as I usually do, I prayed for strength. Strength to stand up for righteousness that now abides in me, and to chase the D Man away even before he can try any tricks.

I really miss God alot. Miss His Word and His Presence.

"I'm coming back Lord.. Don't wana eat those pig feed no more.. With my bare feet I'll run through the hills and forests and plains... To return to Your House.. To run into Your outstretched arms as You wait for me at the door to welcome me home.. Sorry for being so silly.. I really need to grow up I guess.. I'm coming home.."