oh man..

hmmm.. i just discovered something.. all along i've been telling myself that i want a godly girl, someone who shares in my passion for God, who would love God more than me, just like how i love God more than anything, and run after Him with all her heart and serve Him, so that we can both grow together in our walk with God as we serve. but it seems like i keep getting attracted to gals who are non-believers, pple who don't understand why i love God so much and the whole thing that surrounds our passion. i thought breaking with nic with be the end of the whole saga, since there won't be anyone new whom i wld get to know. i was wrong. haha. now i'm caught again in the struggle within myself. i know i won't compromise God anymore, for i know of the consequences from past experiences, but yet another part of me says "why not?" sigh. i just hope that someday she would understand. at least then things wld be beautiful. just gotta trust God on that. if it's meant to be, it wld be. yupps. =)