reflections... reflector?

hmmm... read her blog today... finally read it... sigh... i dunno man... i know it's over... i know i said i'll let go and leave it to God... i said lotsa stuff... but somehow in me... i still cling on unknowingly... and then when i see her again... sigh... i know she has let go... see her enjoying herself with her own frenz and stuff... i'm no longer a factor in her life anymore... but she still is... a little... somehow i still think of her at times when i'm alone... my mind would wander to her... why? i know it's no use thinking of her or going after her again... the ending would be the same as the previous few... cos... in the end... it'll be... the issue with God... i chose to walk this path of being a reflector... ain't gonna turn back... though i do look back over my shoulders... sigh... i'm messed up... not in the totally lost way... just frustrated that i can't let her go everytime this happens... i'm like such a loser... while she has moved on i'm still stuck in this place eating her dust... crappy... God... someone... help me... >.<

*in distress*