what a long day...

it was such a long day today... did alot of work man... carrying heavy stuff from the shop to another in bras basah.. in the rain some more.. walked all the way to funan to buy stuff.. wa... super far.. but we slacked there and played the xbox and CS.. haha.. fun fun.. ;-p

went for dinner with my friend.. it was fun.. and it really made my day.. haha.. as i said before, i still make a much better friend or close friend ( a lil more than a friend kinda thing ) than a lover.. cos when pple become lovers, they tend to put much more expectations on the other.. that's how i feel.. and that's what i've gone through.. so.. yeah i dun wan that to happen.. i rather have a close friend.. and if it is God's will, then we would be that much more than close friends lor.. yeah.. although danny and the yf discourage BGR, it ain't that which makes me put it aside right now.. it's cos i know from my recent breakup that i'm not ready.. i'm not mature enough to handle things of such great magnitude in a way that would please God, and would resolve any problems that surface peacefully and happily.. i dun want those puppy love kinda relationship that is lovey dovey and stuff.. a relationship is not just that.. it is something more.. it is sharing your life with the other.. and what i'm really excited about is God.. it's Jesus.. if my other half doesn't see it.. doesn't understand and get it, then how can she possibly share in my passion and enthusiasm?

haha.. i know i may some confusing.. may some contradicting to you, whoever you are that's reading my blog with or without my knowledge.. but yeah that's my stand.. i just won't stand down from Jesus.. He gave me my family back.. He restored to me a life that I can live in.. He stopped me from taking the plunge 3 years ago.. and He came for me that night as i wept to sleep.. He has been so real, so remarkable to me.. I will give my everything for Him.. everything.