adrift in no man's land...

ever had the feeling that you're stuck somewhere? just afloat and drifting in space... no sense of where you're headed and what you're doing... well the feeling hit me again... sigh... saw some vid clip.. wow it was exactly the same as a dream i had before... EXACTLY the same... here... http://www.samuelgoh.net/love/ai_ni_shi_ge_cuo.htm it brought tears to me... lots and lots.. then it struck me... have i not gotten over nic??? i really thought i had... but... the words of that dying guy... it just brings back everything... maybe deep down inside, that's how i feel... that i'll love her forever... even if given another chance, knowing the same ending, i'll still choose to love her... it has been the best times of my life... it has been the best rship.. and nothing... noone... can ever replace nic... never... i dunno why... i dunno how... i dunno for what... i just love her... plain and simple... i know i gotta move on and all that crap... i will i guess... but this kinda stuff, there's no definitive measure to it... you can't say that it's totally over... no matter what you'll still feel something... at least for me i still would... foolishness? i dunno... love is a funny thing... haha... the time for me and nic have came and gone by... maybe we will be together next time... and most probably not... but no matter what happens... i will love her... now and forever i guess... as for right now... i'll just shove it aside and try not to think about it... the memories are fond... the times spent have been lovely... and i'll always always think of them... how sweet they are... they'll always put a smile on my face... and that's how a beautiful rship should be... full of fond memories... =) *maybe, i still do... now and forever... i will be... your man...*

Relationship Quiz

eXpressive: 5/10 Practical: 4/10 Physical: 4/10 Giver: 8/10 You are a RSIG--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a People-Pleaser.Oh, RSIG! You are the most complicated and dynamic of any type. You are brilliant, tender, romantic and a joy to be with. You're the favorite of many of your friends. It's just not a party until you get there. You are bursting with feeling and sentiment and insight but you very rarely express it -- it's not how you want to present yourself to the world. Although you are always studying your non-romantic relationships -- you turn a blind eye to romantic relationships. You're highly adaptable, and you conform to your circumstances (maybe you're a youngest child?). You would probably be content with almost anyone, and almost anyone would be blissfully happy to have you. But just because you're content doesn't mean you're happy. Don't settle! You'd rather ignore your problems than rock the boat by creating conflict. Please understand that in the long run ignoring conflict will make you unhappy and your partner exhausted. Try picking a fight just to see how it goes. You'll find out that solving problems is so satisfying for you that it makes conflict worth it. Your sex life could be fantastic if you could stop worrying about everything so much (did I wash my hands? how do I look? what do I need to do tomorrow?). You need a sweet, expressive lover who makes you feel at ease and never puts pressure on you. If you feel secure with your partner outside the bedroom, it will make all the difference. You cry at movies. A lot.Of the 89945 people who have taken this quiz, 5.8 % are this type.

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crap shit.. haha.. some parts of this is so true!!! but well there are parts that aren't... haha... sweet expressive lover??? sigh... never knew a gal that is like that... maybe that's why the previous relationships did not last... haha... hope i'll find someone stated above... hehe... ;-p okies.. if you wana try it out, it's at http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Relationship&page=1.. yupps... cheers!!! ^.^