Encounter...

Went out with my jie mei yesterday, lyn and ser. Not sure what's up but my mind was blank and I was totally moodless. Not upset or anything just totally sian and weary. But I brushed it aside as having insufficient sleep. Supposed to be going off now to meet nic to shop for my army stuff. But decided to watch the Hillsong United DVD. Had a good time dancing about the house and just praising Him. Then came to the slow ministry songs. Sat on the sofa and just let myself be free to worship God. During the spontaneous I just let myself be drawn into the presence of God. He was there. And I felt so led to pray for the worship team and our jamming sessions. I even asked for a personal encounter with God cause it's been so long since I've felt His touch. And there and then God met me. Something in me just exploded and was just weeping and crying out to God. That was when I realised and told Him what was wrong. My walk with God was stagnant. My spirit was dry and thirsty but I've tried to quench that thirst with other activities instead of seeking God. I realised that I missed Him and His Spirit. The life that He has given me to live. It was sweet and pure and joyful and full of love. But I've grown complacent when things are all fine and unconsciously I've developed the mentality that all's well and I don't need God. But I was so so so wrong. After you've tasted the true sweet life of God, nothing else can come close to it. That's why my spirit was dry and listless. Because it was living a life that was substandard. By shortchanging my inner man, I've shortchanged myself of the fullness of the life of God. Stay strong my dear CG and worship team in your walk with God. Never ever shortchange your spirit and yourself. Even though seeking and spending time with Him may be take up lots of time, which our flesh says could be spent on more enjoyable things, trust me, the time with God is so much better than the time in the world. Remember, we are in the world but not of the world. =)